Childhood Fears Rear Their Ugly Head

So, I had my first "date" with my friend M tonight. It's really something we should have done awhile ago but I'm already seeing someone and although we have an open relationship, and he's seeing someone, I just couldn't get past the idea that it really is OK to date more then one person at a time. I am not a permiscuous person by nature. You can count the number of men I've slept with one one had and still have a couple of fingers left over.

Sexual reputation has always been an issue in my family, as in if you have a reputation no one will ever truely love you or respect you and bad, bad things will happen to you, etc. I've worked really hard to get past that, and realizing that I've missed out on some good things in the past because I carred more about what people will say. People will always say whatever they want. I just can't bring myself to care about the thoughts of people who are going to be catty and unsuportive anymore. I'm tired of trying to explain things by justifying to other my own happiness. My happiness should be its own justification, no further explanation necessary. And I am happy now, and confident (for once) in my relationships. So there.

Work Foo

So I nearly had to put the smack down on one of the sub's today. So, Phyco Catholic, or PC, comes into the falculty room room today during the Preist's Appreciation Day thing, raving about G.W. the science teacher and I exchange looks, but keep our mouths shut, even though the priests (who are reaaly quiet nice) have requested that we not discuss politics. Finally P.C. says "well I'm just so pro-life, II love G.W." Now, I ask you, with only one week left to go before I flee Catholosism forever, can I resonably be expected to keep my mouth shut? I thought not. S I turn to her and say "anybody who condose and rape and torture of women and children doesn't get to call himself prolife". Dead silence. "...but the cake is great!" Laughter. P.C. "Well its all just polotics." At which point I just leave because if I try to explain the obsenity that is our current government things will gwt ugly and I would hate to be forcable removed from the school before getting a chance to say goodbye to my students.